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I just accidentally deleted a post. I realize I’m not in a good state. I said something at work that I would never have ever said I might be in trouble for it. Anxiety over it is ruining my weekend.. I don’t know. Of course I gambled and didn’t win the big one 0 very disappointed that I didn’t I don’t know thats immature. It’s embarrassing because I am a counselor. I know better. Most of my stress comes from not being understood at work for the kind of counseling I do . I will share it with someone that I don’t feel supported at work, but I reported that to someone above me, I was written up for having a negative mindset and spreading negative words.. when I actually in embarrassed of people because I said that. I made a proposal above another manager above someone’s head I guess. I think that’s why I was written up..
I hope I don’t get fired. My stress over being misunderstood and of course the gambling and being busy at work through the work of two people has taken it’s toll. Officially now.. . And of course I found a way to make up for my scratches with other gambling. I sure let myself get hooked on that one win I missed. Almost a whole month of chasing it.
All of your posts Ken make sense about our beliefs of ourselves sometime these truths, are overwhelming. Since I was gambling and not quitting. I didn’t feel I guess. Worthy of reading, and posting here.
I’m still scratch free thanks to God on your encouragements I’ve been tempted. Thank God for you all and Ken our leader. I pray that God gets with me this. Thank you everybody we will be with our new people my good friends no partner and my cat.
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Hi Steve I’m sorry you are going through so much. Honestly is a huge thing. The fact that you are still gambling and coming here and posting. You shouldn’t feel that that is a bad thing. Everyone here I’m sure has experienced that. We all want to be gamble free. Appears there’s work involved with that. I guess when we want things too be better and there not it’s disheartening
With your job I’m sorry I hope for you everything works out okay. It should if you feel you said something out of line I’d apologize. I’m not sure what the situation entailed.
You are a councillor I wasn’t aware of that. It’s gotta be hard Counciling knowing you have your own problems you are trying to over come. Truth is councillor or no councillor you are human no one is above having things they need to deal with or falling into a problem hence gambling. It actually happens really innocently. We didn’t hold up a bank. I think most of us have really big hearts and are trying to find our way out of addiction. Giving the idea up of easy money to solve our problems isn’t easy. Since gambling likely created those problems in the first place.
But here we are and that’s the huge thing we truly want to be free of gambling What ever form that’s in. We’ll do it because we know that’s what’s best for ourselves. And maybe that’s where the how comes in. Sit down figure out what might work best for you. I haven’t attended yet but there are online ga meetings maybe seek out and try that. I realize because of your job you want to keep this low keyed.
You are loved.
Hi serenity, thank you very much you are for the very thoughtful and considerate reply. Yeah let’s just one more day but today first I guess.
I was thinking it’s almost like that, but I don’t understand that circling around. I don’t understand is really getting me.
I had written a long message to you and accidentally deleted it. I will write it again another day possibly. Gee these little buttons are touchy.
Hi there thank you so much you’re such a long suffering person with a loving mother for your daughter and what a great daughter to get through all that you shared a great example of two recoveries
It shows how much work it really is. so I’ll have to be patient with others and with myself my landlord came and gave me some grief too It’s turned into a worse day.
Power-hungry people and people who are manipulative don’t make life any better.
But I understand I have to look past even those awful times and just work on myself, and let them go to be with them selves
Hi, thank you so much for your considerate reply. God bless.
Sounds like an enormous amount of stress. Maybe you need to find a fellow counselor in a different office that can help you unpack it all and guide you through the deeper issues. Much love and light to you.❤️❤️❤️
Hi diamond, thank you so much. I appreciate you and serenity offer your support always going for a walk with a friend. That should be a good time on my best. Enjoy your one more day.
I’m glad you read my message to you. Now I won’t need to write it again. I really didn’t suffer if my daughter didn’t make a turn around. That would have been true suffering.
Steve sorry about the land lord. That’s a what’re right 🙂
Things will improve for me also. I’m working on it 🙂
Hugs.