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My end of the week “Race to $0 (in a good way) current debt total is $18,500. I’m holding steady financially but I really need to be hyper vigilant right now because I know my pattern all too well. I’m most vulnerable to my addiction when my life is going really good and I’m balanced…. Go figure!!😂😂…..I have a quote written on my bathroom mirror that I heard in a GA meeting years ago. It says, “No matter how far you drive, you are always the same distance away from the ditch.” It reminds me to stay present and humble. I think what happens to me is even though my life is going well everything feels kind of grey. My comfort zone is extremes, chaos and friction so the slower pace of an authentic and balanced life is foreign to me. My current go-to when I feel like throwing in the towel is looking for something to do right in this moment that will benefit another person. Yesterday I baked some brownies for my neighbor. I think the act of being of service to someone else works for me because it takes me out of my own headspace and makes me focus on someone else. I’m going on a yoga retreat tomorrow and they make us surrender or phones so I won’t be able to reconnect with you guys until Monday but I love you and I believe in you. Sorry for the long post.