• Lenor posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 1 year, 2 months ago

    I relapsed again. This morning to be exact 😭😭😭. I’m down all my money and the bank will take my paycheck next week. I HATE MYself! I was doing ok for a while. I really don’t want to sign myself out of the casino because that’s like given in !! and I know I can BEAT this terrible thing I’m doing!! Lord please help me !!! I was NEVER like this. I feel like running away ! From everyone and everything!!

    • You and me Both.I feel like running away myself i cannot stop gambling and i feel like im having gambling withdrawels just like a drug addict does.Im online looking for a counselor i need more help than just GA.

      • I’m with you it’s so HARD and embarrassing!! I need more too more than a GA FOR SURE. MAYBE we can start by helping each other. Sounds like we are in the same boat. If you don’t mind I would like for us to talk see where we can go to help each other

        • Hi yes.im always here to chat usually unless im working.I called 2 counselors today both reached back out and 1 of them i missed their call.At this point in my life im at the worst of my addiction meaning its progressed to a point i feel like i am completly unable and will not be able to stop.Gamb rules my life i need to get control back.Ive lost an insane amount of $ on lottery tixs.makes me sick thinking of it.

    • I’m so sorry that has happened, I truly know those feelings you’re describing. The anger at myself, the shame, feeling at a loss at what to do now. I have to believe what others in recovery have said, we are not bad people, but we have a disease that can kill, and definitely destroy your life. I just need to keep finding help, meetings, maybe a counsellor, something will help. I am with you in broken-spirit. Boy, it hurts to keep loosing.

      • Hello Sheila how are you with your gambling? Have you reached out to a counselor? I reached out today waiting on a response from her this addiction sucks really bad!