• JerMe posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 1 year, 3 months ago

    Hello everyone. I’ve been watching YouTube videos about gambling addiction. It’s been helpful just hearing so many different ways of thinking I have not thought of before myself. I think that is one of the most helpful things about GA, and online communities like this.

    Things that are becoming clear to me are that I never once won! Never! If I put all my losses and “wins” on a timeline, starting from my first bet ever, I was never ahead at any point after my very first bet.

    The illusion of “winning” is what fooled me. How I let all the previous losses escape my memory is baffling!

    I’m starting to realize how powerful the passage of time is. Just the other day I posted on here that I want time to pass by so that I can be beyond these feelings of shame. The passage of time does heal – at least for me, it heals to a point where I forget. Sadly I end up in the same spot again – whether
    “win” or lose, all the bets that preceded present betting escape me – as though I was healed from the last damage. Far from it!!

    How can I carry those last experiences with me so that I don’t forget but also don’t feel the immense shame from
    It.