• IA posted an update in the group Group logo of CommunityCommunity 3 years, 2 months ago

    Hello, I’m new here. Just fresh from losing my fiance, and 2 dream jobs within 7months. Debts on debts. Betrayed and lied to all my friends. Probably days away from another suicide attempt. These are my last attempts at redemption. I’m probably the worst person on earth

    • Hi IA.. 20 months ago I felt exactly the same way, I gambled over $10k in 24 hrs, all my savings, negative checking account, and all credit cards maxed. I also gambled $2k of my friend’s money. I felt so ashamed and wanted to end my life. But instead of doing that I decided to do something about gambling. I self excluded from casinos and got support from gamtalk and a gambling counselor. Fast forward 20 months, I have doubled my savings, a good credit score and most importantly a peaceful mind. I slipped twice, but kept coming back to this site to remind me of what gambling did to me. Hang in there…

    • Hi IA. There is dawn in the darkness and light at the end of the tunnel. You are a good person in the grips of a baffling addiction. I am on Day 4, finally taking my need to recover serious and working the 12 steps. I think if the addiction as a “monster” and I am choosing not to feed it. A man once said he gave up gambling and got all he wanted and more. https://12step.org/references/12-step-versions/ga/