I NEED TO GET RID OFF THE THOUGHTS OF GAMBLING...

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June 5, 2013 12:15 AM

HELLO EVERYONE,

I DONT KNOW WHERE AND HOW TO BEGIN MY STORY AGAIN COZ ITS BEEN AWHILE THAT I HAVEN'T BACK IN HERE. THOUGHT I WAS TOO BUSY WITH MY JOB, GOING OUT WITH FRIENDS DANCING AND GOING TO THE GYM.HOWEVER THERE IS ONE IMPORTANT THING THAT I HAVEN'T GIVEN AN ATTENTION IS FORGETTING TO GO A GA MEETINGS AND I REGRET FOR NOT GOING. THE PROBLEM IS I THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS UNDER CONTROL, THOUGHT I DON'T NEED TO GO THE MEETINGS AND COUNSELING BUT IM ABSOLUTELY WRONG. JUST THIS PAST FEW WEEKS THE DEVIL ATTACT ME AND I WAS TOO WEAK TO DEPEND MYSELF DUE TOO STRESSFULL JOB AND MY FAMILY HAS GIVEN ME PROBLEM THAT I CAN'T EVEN AFFORD TO HANDLE MY OWN.OH WELL," WHAT A LIFE " LIFE IS STORY" ANYWAY, I JUST GOT  BACK FROM THE CASINO AND FEELING SAD AND REMORSE AT THE MOMENT. I HAVE BEEN GOING BACK AND FORT FOR TWO WEEKS NOW, OF COURSE I WIN SOME "THE SAME STORY" THATS WHY I KEEP COMING BACK AND MY MIND SETS THAT I WILL GO THERE TWICE A WEEK JUST TO KILL TIME AND MAYBE  WIN A LITTLE BIT AND GO HOME BUT AINT GONNA HAPPEN. THE MONEY THAT I WON FROM LAST WEEK UNFORTUNATELY I LOSE IT TONIGHT PLUS $140 OUT FROM MY POCKET WOW. I REALLY THOUGHT I CAN CONTROL THIS ILLNESS NOPE. MY FRIEND KEEP TELLING ME THAT I CAN STILL GAMBLE BUT I JUST HAVE TO CONTROL IT. HOW? TELL ME? NEVER BEEN TO ME. MY MIND SAID YES BUT THE REALITY IS NEVER IF WE ARE A GAMBLER. HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO CONVINCE MYSELF TO CONTROL THIS ADDICTION? MILLION TIMES AND IT ENDED TO A DISASTROUS RESULTS.SADLY, AFTER LOSING THAT MONEY TONIGHT I WANTED TO GO BACK THERE AGAIN THIS WEEK TO WIN IT BACK.OMG, " I NEED HELP TO GET RID OFF THIS FEELING AND THOUGHTS. TELL ME, WHATS GONNA HAPPEN IF I GO BACK? LET SAY I WIN THE MONEY BACK, WHATS NEXT? NO WONDER THIS PAST FEW WEEKS I HAVEN'T FEELING WELL AND ALWAYS FEELING TIRED I THINK BECAUSE I GAMBLE AGAIN IT HAS ALWAYS A DIFFERENT FEELING INSIDE OF ME. I HAVENT GAMBLE IN A LONG TIME I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER GO BACK THERE AGAIN BUT HERE I GO AGAIN BEGGING SOME ADVICE I KNOW THERE IS A LOT OF PEOPLE HERE THAT ARE GAMBLE FREE FOR DECADES YOUR ADVICE IS VERY HELPFULL. I WILL APPRECIATE IF YOU POST ONE. THANK YOU

 

ROSE

 

 
 
 
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June 5, 2013 1:30 PM

Rose,  you HAVE to take your recovery very SERIOUSLY and you HAVE to be very proactive, very VIGILANT. It will take a lot of strength and determination!!! This is not a disease that can be taken lightly or taken for granted!!! It is very insidious in it's nature, you have to ALWAYS be on guard. Go to as many GA meetings as you can. Seek counseling and come here when you get urges. This will triple your chances of recovery. Don't be deceived anymore!!! The gambling demon is evil in it's grip to overpower you and you must fight back with every fiber of your soul. Step 1 admit we are powerless.....Don't even start...Don't play the devil's game. Don't allow the oppurtunity in the first place. Don't give the devil a chance to destroy you and drag you down. Seek your higher power. Find a good church and get rooted, get involved with women's bible study. There is a place where you can "Celebrate Recovery." Do it for yourself Rose, give yourself a fighting chance. This has kicked you to the curb too many times. Don't let it win. You can do it ONE DAY AT A TIME ~ Stay gamble free
 
 
 
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