I’m meeting with my doctor today to talk about antidepressant medication. Hopefully will help and support my recovery. Appears primary issue may be depression and gambling started out as a coping method or outlet,but then became its own separate problem.
I’m afraid. I don’t want to lose my wife and family. I’m so tired of worrying every day about money. Constantly rationalizing and trying to cover up all the wasted money. I make an excellent salary, but I am always broke. I have destroyed my credit and I can’t even open a new bank account. I’m pathetic.
This is my first entry, and I am hoping it will be the first of many. I want to stop gambling before it becomes any worse. Because of my employment it is difficult for me to seek local help. I am trying to find other avenues to help myself. The problem is with scratch tickets. Used to be online poker but that fortunately is no longer an issue or even possible in the states.